...RilEKss...

...super true!!!...

2009-02-19T12:55:00.003+08:00

Since i gt ntg much to update, i did this quiz that i saw at yayah's blog... n i think its kinda true lah... hehehe....

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Commitment
Looked down on
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz'>http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

labels***dissapointments in life???? i guess....

...another random one...

2008-12-27T00:20:00.002+08:00

decided to remove certain part of my previous post

since some people dun appreciate...

wat fer wanna put it up ryte..

haha...

anyways... just got bk frm training...

super tired...

currently busy with countdown perf training...

kinda lewking forward to it...

but a certain part of me am nt...

haha... maybe cos it struck me tat 2008

is cmng to an end...

its kinda weird lah...

so many things happened in my life this year...

good n bad..

just can't believe that its been a year already...

n i really dun noe what 2009 has in store fer me...

haha...

anyways... on thursday i werked at Snapz...

was super fun... haha...

its been my 3rd tyme werking there...

and i can't wait to werk agaen...

n also i can't wait fer pay day lah!!!

hahaha...

cos i wana buy an i-touch i think...

tat mp4 touch screen thingy...

i'm like so in love with that lah...

n if anybody were to buy me that...

i will be so happy n in love with u also...

hahaha...

k lah... i seriously am starting to type nonsence..

so i better stop...

tmrw gt production training...

so i better sleep...

i miss dancing so much...

like oh my gawd lah...

hahaha...

k lah..

toodles...

labels**i want tat i-touch mp4.. please!!!!

...random...

2008-12-24T15:42:00.007+08:00

life's seriously been a roller coaster man!!!

yikes... lewking back... so many things happened this year...

n hell yeah!!! its cmng to an end!!

i mean year 2008 that is..

heh...

anyways.. this goes out to a random person...

i really hope u know where you stand ryte now...

n i really hope you'll stop all this pestering...

cos seriously... u're like a pest in our lives...

freaking irritating n wont just go away...

we're freaking happy with each other now..

n nothing u do can ever change that..

face it.. u're no longer in the picture anymore..

n if u really hate him so much like how u 'declared' to

almost everyone.... den f***ing move on lah!!

pls eh.. thanks... and also... stop calling or msging..

cos thats very very irritating... like really...

specially to my 9 galfrens from bishan...

i miss u guys truckloads!!! hope u gals are doing fine...

n i cant wit to meet u gals soon i hope!!!

love u gals so much!!!

labels**life's a ride.. u'll never noe what's up at the next turn...

...i got a job!!!...

2008-12-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

wohooo!!! all thanks to WAN KECHIK!!!

i've gt a part-time freelance job as a make-up artiste

at SNAPZ Image...

its super kewl lah kay!!!

hahaha... n im loving it!! wohooo!!!

i miss my galfrens so much lah can!!!

n im sorry i didnt turn up fer the outing...

really sorrie... promise i'll make it up to u gals soon aite...

anyways its kinda late..

n i dunnoe wad to write animore...

byes!! haha...

labels**i'm a make-up artiste!!!

...Shattered...Disappointed...Hurt...

2008-11-05T11:55:00.002+08:00

this is it.. finally a decision is made..

but its nt a good one like i hoped for...

hopes and dreams shattered..

promises broken...

like a wise man once said..

it takes two hands to clap..

i just dun understand why..

why you would always allow him to destroy your happiness?

cos like wad you told me..

this is nt the first time..

its the 5th time it has happened...

n to think you could still let it happen agaen..

that really hurts..

i treasure every moment we spent together..

and all this while..

even till tat last minute before i board the taxi home...

i was clinging on to the hope tat we can get back to where we were...

when we ferst met...

when we ferst fall in love...

when he wasnt around to interfere...

when you were always sure not to let him have a chance to interfere...

but yet agaen..

a disappointment is all i get from you...

i'm devastated... tmrw was suppose to be special...

i've planned 3 different surprises for u...

but i guess.. its all a waste now...

i just dun understand why must u do this...

why ??

enuff saed.. it's just hurting me more...

labels**the love we shared will never die...tis i promise u..

...Kau Ada Dia...

2008-10-26T00:17:00.005+08:00

...The Lima...

its just a random post about how i feel now a days...

dwell on it...

Sudah lama ku memendam rasa

Cinta di dalam dada

Namun tidak pernah bersuara

Kerana takut kecewa

Ku tunggu waktu yang lebih baik

Untuk langkah pertama

Jauh dari apa yang ku kira

Hatimu ada yang punya

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua

Mesra bersama dilamun cinta

Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Mungkin juga semuanya salah ku

Terlalu mengharapkan cinta

Tapi sepi yang merasuk kalbu

Membawa angan melayang

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua

Mesra bersama dilamun cinta

Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia.

labels**i miss the person u were the ferst time we met...

...What a Birthday...

2008-05-15T15:30:00.002+08:00

Yet again, a birthday tat i'll never forget...
i guess its my luck.. tat i'll always have a bad birthday..
haiz... u were the person tat i wanted to spend tis day with..
but u dissapoint me.. all i can say is..
THANK YOU.. thank you for a 'WONDERFUL' birthday..
thank you for making me cry...
thank you for making me spend my birthday all alone..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

i'm heart broken.. but u cudn't care less abt how i feel...

"...Ku peluk indah manisnya cinta,
Semuanya terasa indah,
Bagai di alam cerita cinta,
Hadir bahagia selama-lama

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami,
Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya
Mengapa kekasih,
Tiada kau percaya,
Kebenaran cerita kita
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan,
Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,
Arjuna dihatimu,
Percayalah oh puteri..."

labels**cried till my eyes dried out...

...this is so true!!...

2008-05-04T00:15:00.000+08:00

What Raimi Means

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

...Forever Love...

2008-03-12T22:43:00.009+08:00

When you are caressing my skin

you make me feel so special

because you are loving me for what's within.

It's weird how we got together

we have so much in common,

I can see you in my life for a long time,

hopefully even forever.

The first time we laid our eyes on each other it was fate,

from then on, I knew I had found my life-long mate.

It was like love at first sight

the were no questions of maybe? or just might?

You make me feel like my head is way up in the clouds,

I feel as high as a kite.

The minute you told me you loved me, I felt it too,

we belong together,

for our love is always true.

I promise you I will never cheat or lie,

for I know if that happened my heart would just die.

This is the happiest I've been in the past few years,

I want to feel this way forever,

the only way that can happen is if I am with only you dear.

I love you and this is how I feel,

I've had a lot of heartbreaks and being with you makes my heart want to heal.

You're the one for me and I'm the one for you,

that's what makes our love so unbelievably true.

met bie fer dinner at Pastamania todae..

den off to bie's place..

bie gave me a bracelet n shirt..

i love it..

thanks bie.

love u so much..

can't wait for tmrw..

gonna spend the whole day with you..

love u more n more each day!!

i dunnoe y.. but i cant upload the pics..

hehe.. some other times perhaps..

labels**cant wait fer tmrw!!!

...alwaes remember...

2008-03-09T23:00:00.005+08:00

Brown Eyes

Remember The First Day When I Saw Your Face

Remember The First Day When You Smiled At Me

You Stepped To Me And You Said To Me

I Was The Woman You Dreamed About

Remember The First Day When You Called My House

Remember The First Day When You Took Me Out

We Had Butterflies Although We Tried To Hide

And We Both Had A Beautiful Night

The Way We Held Each Others Hand

The Way We Walked The Way We Laughed

It Felt So Good To Find True Love

I Knew Right Then And There You Were The One

I Know That He Loves Me Cause He Told Me So

I Know That He Loves Me Cause His Feelings Show

When He Stares At Me You See He Cares For Me

You See How He Is So Deep In Love

I Know That He Loves Me Cause Its Obvious

I Know That He Loves Me Cause It's Me He Trusts

And He's Missing Me If He's Not Kissing Me

And When He Looks At Me His Brown Eyes Tells His Soul

Remember The First Day The First Day We Kissed

Remember The First Day We Had An Argument

We Apologized And Then We Compromised

And We Haven't Argued Since

Remember The First Day We Stopped Playing Games

Remember The First Day You Fell In Love With Me

It Felt So Good For You To Say Those Words

Cause I Felt The Same Way Too

The Way We Held Each Others Hand

The Way We Talked The Way We Laughed

It Felt So Good To Fall In Love

And I Knew Right Then And There You Were The One

I Know That He Loves Me Cause He Told Me So

I Know That He Loves Me Cause His Feelings Show

When He Stares At Me You See He Cares For Me

You See How He Is So Deep In Love

I Know That He Loves Me Cause Its Obvious

I Know That He Loves Me Cause It's Me He Trusts

And He's Missing Me If He's Not Kissing Me

And When He Looks At Me His Brown Eyes Tells His Soul

I'm So Happy So Happy That You're In My Life

And Baby Now That You're A Part Of Me

You Showed Me

Showed Me The True Meaning Of Love

And I Know He Loves Me

I Know That He Loves Me Cause He Told Me So

I Know That He Loves Me Cause His Feelings Show

When He Stares At Me You See He Cares For Me

You See How He Is So Deep In Love

I Know That He Loves Me Cause Its Obvious

I Know That He Loves Me Cause It's Me He Trusts

And He's Missing Me If He's Not Kissing Me

And When He Looks At Me His Brown Eyes Tells His Soul

He Looks At Me And His Brown Eyes Tell His Soul

'...remember the ferst time we met bie??

cos i'll never forget...'

labels**u're all i ever asked for...

...You're all i need...

2008-03-06T16:29:00.003+08:00

This is dedicated to you...

love u so much...

There's a light

A certain kind of light

That never shone on me

I want my life to be

Lived with you

There's a way everybody say

To do each and every little thing

But what does it bring

If I ain't got you, ain't got you

Baby

You don't know what it's like, baby

You don't know what it's like

To love somebody

The way I love you

In my brain

I see your face again

I know my frame of mind

You ain't got to be so blind

And I'm blind, so so so very blind

I'm a man, can't you see What I am

I live and breathe for you

But what good does it do

If I ain't got you, ain't got?

Baby

You don't know what it's like, baby

You don't know what it's like

To love somebody

The way I love you

Oh no no

You don't know what it's like, baby

You don't know what it's like

To love somebody

The way I love you

No no no no

You don't know what it's like

To love somebody

labels**never felt so loved before...

...LOVE...

2008-02-27T01:14:00.003+08:00

Love that lives in the heart

cannot be terminated by time...

Even though the encounter is brief

its impression shall last a lifetime...

No one can change the direction of love that lives in the heart...

If you have loved, that in itself is the answer...

labels**i hate how much i love you....

...all i want is YOU...

2008-02-26T00:25:00.004+08:00

heys...

ferst day at werk todae...

was damn fun..

tmrw's gonna be an outlet gathering..

so lewking forward to miting all the staffs...

didnt go skewl todae...

stomache wasnt feeling so gewd since yest..

dunnoe y...

seriously i gt ntg to update abt..

haha...

anyways...

to 'Z', i swear i was damn stupid to go have confessed everything to you..

cos now im regreting telling u all tat..

n im hating the way u're treating me..

or maybe its just me..

i dunnoe..

but u noe wad.. wadever i told u is all true..

i noe its wrong with ur situation n all..

but wadde heck..

i noe tat between us, its never gonna be possible..

but wadde heck..

how i wosh i never told u about any of tis..

den u wud never noe..

and it'll still be my biggest secret tat i never told anyone..

stupid me i guess..

i noe u wont be reading tis..

i tink.. haha..

k lah.. i wanna do my marketing project..

den off to lala land..

nytes..

All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea...

Labels**i hate you!! but.... regrets...

...to whom it may concern...

2008-02-18T11:16:00.003+08:00

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

...much misses...

2008-02-12T09:18:00.000+08:00

currently in skewl..

Business Communication module..

i'm like suppose to do some minutes writing stuff...

but am damn lazy..haha...

cos its lame.. the whole module is lame to me...

wad i'm here to say is tat...

tis few days.. i've not been myself..

haha...

i cant believe wad i've become..

all my emotions are running hay-wire...

i just cant control them anymore..

i can be like crazy one moment..

den i can be quiet the next one..

i can be happy one time..

n i can be crying the next tyme..

n trust me.. i dun realise wad i'm feeling or doing..

i dun even noe im sad n crying till i feel tears on my cheeck...

gosh... am i dat pathetic...

so pathetic tat i cant control my emotions anymore??

my health is like not getting any better...

am still coughing like theres no tmrw..

my flu is like a river which flows non-stop!!

and yes.. my migranes are back...

aaarrrrgggggghhh!!!!!!

i'm so stress!!!

my dance grp's stuff is still not done...

my ODAC proposal still undone in fact im behind schedule..

and i've yet to prepare a thing for my BZC oral presentation which is on fri!!!

aarrrggghhh!!! someone.. just shoot me dead.. gosh!!!

so many tings nt done...

tis week is gonna be so hectic...

n i thank god fer tat...

thanks for keeping me occupied so tat i'm nt reminded of tat one day this week..

tat one day where everyone will be out celebrating and having fun...

but me.. hahaha....

thank god i gt chingay rehearsal...

den i dun have to worry about hu i shud go out wif..

or whether im gonna be alone yet agaen tis year...

hahaha.. im happy at least...

erm i tink...

and....

to AMLI!!!!

like finally i got to have a long chat wif u last nite...

its been ages.. n u were being missed like crazy...

haha... tanx fer all the help n advices..

tanx bro.. n i'm glad tat we're still dis close even being so far n busy alwaes...

we shud meet up soon aite..

i'm like missing all my frens nowadays..

i dunnoe y... i hope i'll be able to meet up with them soon..

clauds suria syuh badd fizi farhan and a hell lot of others...

i'm like missing u people like crazy...

especially the ferst 2 names...

uurrggghhhh...

this feeling sucks u noe..

haha...

oh wells...

shud better get gg now..

must do my assignment fer BZC...

see ya soon..

much loves..

much misses..

Labels**am i tat pathetic??

...relieved...

2008-02-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

I feel so RELIEVED now...

haha.. yeah-ness!! wohoo!!

i quit my job like finally..

(shud have done tat like ages ago..)

gg fer a new job interview tmrw..

hopefully i get tat job...

went out with the usual lovable ones...

had a great tyme with em..

met mdm sunita...

she's like already into her 4th mth!!

haha.. n afiq(her son) says he wants both a baby bro n sis..

haha.. miss him so much.. glad tat cg brought him todae..

after dinner.. lepak2..

played snap! haha.. shud play tat more often..

cos seriously.. it'll bring back the kid in u..

haha.. almost gt into a fight wit tis matrep...

like so wadever..

want to fight over a stupid remark my fren saed..

stupid...

anyways..

i'm like missing Amli n Suria alot...

it's been a while since we last met...

WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE?!

haizzz.....

k lah.. my eyes are sleepy..

see u..

nytes..

labels**i'm happy now.. am i??

...human...

2008-02-09T12:24:00.000+08:00

i dun believe tis..

my gawd.. hu the hell is tis someone trying to be me??

tagging her blog like as if its me..

and to tink tat u people actually really tink its me..

i seriously gt way better tings to do lah..

but den.. i dun blame u people..

humans will be humans...

they'll believe wad they want to believe...

they'll see wad they want to see...

anyways... to her...

im glad u've finally found someone...

glad tat u're happy..

but... i dun understand y in the world did u send me tis msg,

tis mrng;

pertama kali ku mengenal erti cinta

kehadiran mu membawa bahagia

kasih sayang terhadap mu tidak terkira

kau lah anugerah bagi diri ku tercinta

u will always be in my heart...

n i'm fucking sure tat u sent the same msg to him also..

gosh... haha.. quit playing games...

its never gonna work...

be happy with him..

treat him good..

n yeah... forget me... its for the better...

life.. hahaha...

its a funny ting..

life...

all i can sae is..

be contented wit wat u have..

be happy in wadever u do...

cos tats all tat matters..

life's to short to regret...

ok peeps..

i need to get ready fer my dance class...

its lyke finally im getting out of the house!!!

yeah!!!

hahaha... still sick tou..

but nt so sick like 3 days back...

feeling way better now...

alritey...

bye!!

labels**gosh! i cant believe someone wanted to be me!! hahaha

..guilt...

2008-02-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry i left..

i really am.. but i just cant bear to listen to anymore of tis...

it hurts.. it hurts to hear it all over agaen...

i never meant to leave u there alone..

i was worried... i regretted tat move tat i made...

it was the most stupidest thing i've ever done;

to leave u there all alone.. i dunnoe wad came over me..

i just felt like leaving.. i couldn't stand it anymore...

to hear your voice.. ur cry.. i'm sorry...

i cried a tearless cry..

it's all cmng back agaen..

everything we had..

everything we shared..

to listen to it, noeing tat is gone...

just hurts.. it hurts so much..

the memories we shared..

even nt much, i shall always keep...

to her....

i wish u all the best..

may u find happiness..

i'm sorry if i've hurt u in any way..

cos i swear i didnt mean to..

i wud be lying if i saed i didnt miss u one bit while i was in thailand..

the tot of u alwaes crossed my mind every single nite i was there...

siting by the fire.. gazing at the stars.. wondering wad u are doing...

i tot it can all be back to normal agaen wen i came back...

but i guess i tot wrong...

well... hope u're happy.. cos tats all tat matters..

hope u'll be happy with huever u are with now...

to frens...

naj, haidar, muff, ali, epul..

i'm sorry tat it has to come to tis...

but i dun noe any better way...

i just cant bring myself to be the old me with u guys agaen..

i'm sorry for all the mistakes i've done whether noeingly or not...

i'm sorry if in anyway, i've hurt u or something...

cos i swear the tot of doing tat never crossed my mind...

you guys are asking why suddenly i'm close to iemah...

the reason is... she was all i had during my stay there...

the 2 weeks spent wif her n 4 other frens..

were the most memorable time of my life..

during tis 2 weeks, i got to noe a diff iemah...

a person i never knew.. maybe bcos i've never given a chance to really noe her...

but i'm glad tat i spent the two weeks with her...

u mite sae tat it was just two weeks...

but i've been with u guys fer more than 8mnths...

yes.. its only two weeks.. but two weeks of hearing her voice every single day...

without fail... each morning day and nite... spent together with her n the other 4...

the bond we had... is much stronger... cos there, we are all we had...

i hope now u guys understand...

u guys will alwaes be my fren.. it doesnt mean tat we're nt hanging out together...

we are no longer frens.. i'm still here if u ever need me...

to amli n suria...

sorrie if i made u guys worry last nite...

i just needed some time alone..

thanks for all that u've done..

really appreciate it very much...

am looking forward to miting u guys soon..

to irfan n fifa...

tanx for alwaes being there wen i needed advice...

u guys are my bestest.. i noe u noe tat...

i will never forget everyting tat u've done for me..

love u two till bits n pieces...

i'm sick...

sick of tis life..

it has no meaning anymore..

but wad do i do??

life goes on...

people move on...

i'm clinging on to my hopes n past...

tis, i will never let go...

a book was open... a chapter of my life was written...

now.. it is time to open another...

currently not feeling so well...

been coughing alot...

been having a bad backache...

migranes...

flu...

i just feel sick..

so so sick...

gosh...

tats all i've got to say...

nites ya'll

labels**kill me or send me back to thailand.. tats all i ask for..

...Puas Ku Mencuba...

2008-02-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Puas sudah ku mencuba

Menyakinkan dirimu kasih

Dan ku cuba meleraikan

Kekusutan tersimpul

Namun apa daya...

Puas sudah ku mencuba

Turuti rentak dirimu sayang

Agar tiada tercetus sengketa

Di antara kita untuk selamanya

Engkau sering menduga hati ini

Menggugat kesabaranku

Namun tak pernah aku tunjukkan

Keresahan diwajahku...

Sampai disini saja sayang

Mampu ku pertahankannya

Kerna aku jua insan

Yang perlukan perhatian

Jangan kau sesali lagi

Atau menyalahkan takdir

Lihat pada diri

Di manakah kesilapanmu kasih

Menilai ketulusan

...CINTA...

2008-01-27T02:19:00.000+08:00

Cinta takkan datang

Kalau tak dicari..

Cinta takkan dapat

Kalau tak memberi..

Jika cinta itu suci..

Biarlah ia pergi..

Jika cinta itu sejati..

Ia akan kembali..

Jika cinta itu tidak kembali..

Maka ia tidak pernah wujud di hati..

...i'm saying goodbye...

2007-12-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

yes i'm saying goodbye....

closing this blog... maybe permanently maybe temporarily...

for now.. dun expect any updates after this...

very busy with work skewl dance plus other stuffs...

so for now im saying goodbye...

yes, goodbye...

...Never Gonna Leave Your Side...

2007-11-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

...Daniel Bedingfield...

I feel like a song without the words

A man without a soul

A bird without its wings

A heart without a home

I feel like a knight without a sword

The sky without the sun

cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves

A child that lost its way

A door without a key

A face without a name

I feel like a breath without the air

And every day's the same

since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning

You used to be the one that put a smile on my face

There are the words that could describe how I miss you

and I miss you everyday

yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side

and I'm never gonna leave your side again

still holding on girl

I won't let you go

cos when I'm lying in your arms

I know im home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind

Living in the pain

The call in times gone by

The crying in the rain

You know i've wasted half the time

And i'm on my knees again

till you come to me

yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning

You used to be the one that put a smile on my face

There are the words that could describe how I miss you

and I miss you everyday

yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side

and I'm never gonna leave your side again

still holding on girl

I won't let you go

I lay my head against your heart

I know im home

and I'm never gonna leave your side

and I'm never gonna leave your side again

still holding on girl I won't let you go

cos when im lying in your arms

i know im home

i'm never gonna leave you

Labels***i love you...

...Salam Sinar Lebaran...

2007-10-15T21:06:00.001+08:00

hey peeps!!!

i just wanna wish all my family frens and 'fans'(if any) hehe...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

mohon maaf zahir dan batin...

smoge syawal yang menjelang membawa sinar baru di dalam hidup kiter...

insyaallah...

stay happy2 celebrating with ur loved ones aite!!!

and lastly....

JANGAN LUPER DTG UMAH AKU TAU!!!!

anda semue dijemput...

just give me a call if you are coming aite!!!

smoge bertemu lagik aite!!!

buhbye!!!

labels**duit raye makin kekurangan... haiz....

...Bisakah Hatiku Difahami...

2007-09-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

Bisakah
Siti Nurhaliza

Daku Terasa Ingin Membawa
Cinta Yang Terlara Ke Titik Mula
Kembali Mencuba Untuk Kali Kedua
Menggilapkan Gerhana Jiwa

Pernah Ku Terasa Ingin Merayu
Pada Kasih Dulu Pulang Padaku
Lupakan Dosaku Putihkan Kelabu
Tenangkan Amarahmu
Namun…

Bisakah Yang Terpadam Dinyala
Bisakah Yang Terhina Dicinta
Walau Ku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Naluri Meminta Kuungkap Kata
Seindah Bahasa Janjikan Setia
Akan Bersemilah Cinta Dihatinya
Percaya Ku Semula
Namun…

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Yang Dusta Dimaafi
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Bila Senduku Berlinang Sayu
Dalam Rindu Ku Tertanya

Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Hatiku Difahami
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

Labels***trying to convince myself tat u're nt e one for me...

...And So I was Tagged...

2007-08-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

hello people... hahaha...and so i was tagged by NURUL SYUHAIDAH....
well ok lor... its been a while since ive done all tis lame stuffs... hehehe...
so y not rite??? ok here goes...

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. my SAMSUNG CAMERA (which model i nt sure..hehe)
2. Vaio laptop
3. PSP white
4. A new pair of super stylish shoes
5. A few pairs of Cardigans frm Topman/Zara/Giordano Concept etc...

The person who tag you is...
Nurul Syuhaidah

Your relationship with her is...
My Sec School/Class-mate

5 impressions you have of him/her…- Stylish
- Short
- SUPER Lame
- Sweet (i guess..hehe)
- Salted (hahaha... i dunnoe wad else to say lah syu!! but u're e best!! loves!!)
(note: all starts with 'S' so it really represents her.. hehe except the last one)

The most memorable thing he/she has done for you
my 17Th bdae card... its so funny.. i still have it sey!!

The most memorable words he/she has said to you
'Taik arh raimi!!!'

If he/she becomes your lover, you will… bully her everyday..hehehe

If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be
sorry to say tis gal... but i want to hold ur hands u noe ; ur sweaty palms?? hehe

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will… have a better sense of style compared to her

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…she is way more stylish

The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is…hug so so tight cos i miss her so much!!!

Your overall impression of him/her is…great wonderful pretty stylish fren

How you think people around you will feel about you
muker step nk mampos...handsome(ceh!!hehe)... tall... lame.. etc.. i dunnoe

The characteristic you love about yourself is…
i just like me features tats all.. i tink...

On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is…
i must really learn to shut up...

The most ideal person you want to be is
i dunnoe... i just want to be a better me i guess.. hahaha...

For people that care and like you, say something to them
i love u guys too!!! tanx for alwaes being there for me... tanx fer being my fren.. tanx for every little tings tat u've done be it if i realise it or not... tanx so much!! u guys rawk!!!

For people whom I've hurt
i'm so sorry.. i really wish it did not have to be tis way... but seriously... i'm sorrie from the bottom of my heart...

For people whom I love and treasure
these group of people shud noe for themselves who they are... cos all i can sae is... there's not tat many in this grp... hehehe... but still... u guys are e best... n i love u so much... just be sure not to press the wrong button aite!! hehehe...

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1. Epul
2. Naj
3. Yayah(tra'irat)
4. Yayah(ISA)
5. CaCa Hamoe
6. Abu
7. Asri ayie
8. Zhu Cheng(ALI)
9. Fifa
10. Ashraf(nurse)

Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
ehem ehem... u noe i noe arh... cannot sae here... later i die sial!!! hehe...

Is no. 9 a male or female?
Female lah dumbass...

If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
it will definitely be a disaster!!! hahahhaa...

How about no. 5 and 8?
i doubt so... cos they dunnoe each other n further more 8 is happily attached fer 1 year plus now...

What is no. 2 studying about?
she's in my class... Business Admin

What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
errmmm... i dunnoe... chinese love songs maybe?? cos tats wat he put on his blog...

Do no. 1 has any siblings?
DUH.... hahaha...

Will you woo no. 3?
hey y not... she makes my tickle bone tickle me more!!! hehehe...

How about no. 7?
erm... hahahaha... he's my bestie... n i noe he likes someone.. so... too bad... hahaha... wait.. wad am i saying??? hahaha

Is no. 4 single?
i dun tink so... cos of the Mr KFC supervisor... hehehe

What is the surname of no. 5?
hmmm... im nt sure... b ut i noe her name is Saidah

What is the nickname of no. 10?
Ash nurse i tink? hehehe or issit just ASh???

What is the hobby of no. 4?
Dance and make people laugh....

Do no. 5 and 9 get along well?
im nt sure if they have ever met!!! hahaha... but i can sae tat they have almost the same characteristic... so i guess they will get along lah...

Where is no. 2 studying at?
Bishan Ite lah... aiyoh!!!

Talk something casual about no. 1.
he's my berok!!! lup u bro... hahaha... n he's superbly funny in everting he does...

Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
r u crazy??? hahaha...

Where does no. 9 live at?
wdlands marsiling area...

What colour does no. 4 like?
PURPLE!!! btol tak??? hehehe

Are no. 5 and 1 bestfriends?
they've never met... hahaha

Does no. 7 like no. 2?
they've never met... hahaha

How do you get to know no. 2?
Skewl lah dey!!! aiyoh!!!

Does no. 1 have any pets?
i dun tink so... rite epul?

Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
i guess... in his own way lah... n yar he's alwaes claiming he's sexy n all...
wadever... hahaha

ok so im done here... at last... hahaha...
so peeps do ur part now if u've been tagged aite!!! hehehe
toodles tc aite!!!

Labels**you can run, you can hide but you cant escape my love....

...If you're not the one...

2007-08-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

Artist: Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms.

Labels**awak... tis is for you...muax!

check it out!!!!

2007-08-14T10:49:00.000+08:00

hahaha... i noe its lame...
but just wanna sae....

HEY CHECK OUT MY NEW CLOCK ON THE LEFT NAVIGATION!!!!!

its uber cool lah!!! i like it sooo much!!!
hehehehe...

k im out!!!
wakaka...

Labels**i just miss the tyme we were together...haiz...

...i'm bored!!!...

2007-08-03T14:03:00.000+08:00

was bored in my office application class...
haiz... waste time seh...
mite as well just cancel the class ryte?
den i can just go home n sleep...
now must waste time surf the net until lessons over...
haiz...

so i just surf the net and came upon some interesting stuff...
i took some tests... so... here's the results...
hahahha...

You Are 62% Passionate, 38% Compassionate

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.
In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.
You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Are 56% Vain

You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence.
Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you!

How Vain Are You?

kk gtg
bye

BOO!! hahaha..

2007-08-02T09:15:00.000+08:00

k shut up raimi!! i noe my title is lame...
im bored... wadya expect...

currently in skewl rite now...
office applications module... not really having any lessons..
cos some of my classmates are actually doing their OA common test as they were absent...

so im just suppose to like surf the net n stuff while waiting fer dem to finish their test...
which i tink will only end at the end of the whole lesson!!!
hahahaha

nvm... its nt like its any important aniwae...
yeah!!! i've completed all my 3 modules common test...
passed one failed one... OA results not out yet...
hopefully i pass my OA man!!! shitos!!
hahaha...

so... life is getting better i mite sae...
even thou the probs are nt solved yet...
but i tink its getting better lah... i mean...
nt to tat grps of people...
but with my own life...
im happy rite now... i must say...
cos, whats the point of being sad n all wen there they are...
enjoying life like there's no tmrw...rite?

so... went to watch Alone the other dae with irfan,agus,ridzwan and izuan...
tanx guys fer the accompaniment... hahaha...
i mean we didnt plan aniting... just tat we said wanted to go town...
but end up all watched movie... n damn u guys fer choosing tat horror movie...
u noe i'll scream, shout n make funny sounds everytime its the scary parts...
hahaha... hey but atleast i watched the whole movie with my hands on my mouth...
not my eyes!!! hahaha... u guys are so funny man...
want to watch horror movie but close ur eyes each time its the horror part!!!
aiyoh!!! aik dish!!*smacks forehead*

tues, i chopped my hair... hahahaha...
like finally... i guess i just gt tired of waiting and waiting for it to grow long enuff so tat i can straighten it like how i and amrul wanted...
sorrie amrul... i just u just go ahead with the plan then...
im quite glad tat i cut my hair... it looks kind of better rite now...
ok tats tat...

yesterday, was tiring.. skewl... den i had rehearsals fer the ferst show tis fri...
went home and dozzzzzzzzeeeee off... so tired...

luckily im nt late fer skewl todae!!! hahaha.. yeah!!! at last!!! hahaha...
have been late like practically since monday till wed... hahaha...

currently reading a book titled Grief Girl by Erin Vincent...
its kinda a sad story...
began reading it since monday... n currently im like at the 3rd last chapter...
hahaha... its a great bk... shud try n read it aite!!!

ouh!! and before i forget... i noe i wished u already on monday..
but for the record... here's a big shout out to....

KERK ZHU CHENG (ALI)...
who turned 17 on monday 30th July 2007...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
may all your wishes come true...
stay happy crazy 'cibai' 'nabei' and smiles alwaes aite!!!
hehehe...

oklah... gtg...
byes...

labels**no matter how bad things are, there's always someone worse off...

hello world!!!

2007-07-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

haha... its been so long since i've updated...
hmm.. life's a bore rite now...
so many probs with diff grps of people...
but all come to the same thing...
haiz...

after all this while.. i cant believe im being treated tis way...
it just hurts so much...
haiz...

well its ok...

i just have to get pass tis phase agaen...
like how i did before...

itll soon be over...
i noe it wud...

well... on a brighter note...

Bishan ITE's Tra'Irat Seni participated in Fiestari 2007
organised by Chengsan CC last saturday 21st july 07...

n guess wad?!?!?!

we attained the 5th prize!!! top 5 leh!!!
yeah man!!! it was a damn tough competition...
n we didnt expect we wud win!!!
cheers to us!!!
hahaha...
cant seem to upload the pics... i nt sure y...
comp lagging like hell sial!!!
haha...

den last wed went fer a heritage tour at suntec city with my class...
was quite lame lah... but oso quite fun ah...
hahaha

tmrw gg fer ndp preview...
hopefully i'll enjoy myself...
haha...

k lah...
gtg
bye

Labels**loner now...haiz...

...i'm 75% right brain!!!...

2007-07-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Pics of Reang 'Nak Tari will be uploaded soon i guess... haha...
still too lazy to do any decent updates!!! hehe...
meanwhile if u really can't wait to look at the pics...
u can view it here...
its nt from my camera thou... but enjoys!!!

Labels**i'll just stop wasting my time trying to entertain you...since u dun seem to like it...

...untitled...

2007-07-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

heys.... just got back from my kakak sedare(cousin's) wedding...

she's a malaysian... so it was a bit of an eye-opener...

the way they have the occasion there n here is like totally diff seh!!!

but i enjoyed myself... even thou its only the solemnization....

the reception is tmrw... but cant attend cos of RNT...

niwaes... here's some pics...

the akad nikah

swearing... smthg like tat lah...

salam

the berinai session

my mum me my sis n the newly weds...

k lah.... tats all fer now... nid to rest....

tmrw must report early for Rewang 'Nak Tari...

hmm....

see u soon then...

byes...

Labels**i so wanna get married...

...Titian MenujuMU...

2007-07-04T12:50:00.000+08:00

Dalam kegelapan malam yang sunyi,

Ada rembulan yang menyinari dinihari,

Apakah ia hanya seketika buat menemani mimpi?

Atau akan terus berlalu pergi?

Namun semua terserah pada takdir ilahi...

Keheningan yang menyelimuti diri,

Bagai menerjah mentari yang menyinari,

Andai malam ini yang terakhir tanpa menunggu esok hari,

Mungkin nafasku kan terhenti disini,

Ku pohon keampunan dariMU Ya Rabbi,

Agar titian menujuMU bukan satu ilusi...

niwaes...
tanx to Abg Arep for this belated gift!!

k tats all fer now...

byes...

Labels**fata-murgana...

...toughtimes...

2007-07-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

hey all... i noe its been so long since i updated my blog...

have been super duper busy n tired lately (like alwaes!haha)...

n hell yeah i went to selangor a few weeks ago!! n it was damn hell lot of fun!!!

super pleased to be able to get out of this fucking 'life' for 4 days n just enjoy myself there!!!

pics of the trip will be uploaded as soon as i get them frm Karim k!!

(in other words... wait long long!!haha...)

den, had a staff retreat at Safra Yishun....

its been so long since i last met or had a meeting with the staffs frm MDM...

it was great fun to finally meet up wif them and given the opportunity yet agaen to help

with the future plannings and upgrading of the mosque...

after which headed down to bukit batok Civil Service Club for a bdae celebration...

it was little Nabil's 1 year birthday!!! Kak Yas n Abg Ricky had a small gathering for him...

it was fun... had a blast there eating singing n simply enjoying ourselves...

den, its bk to dance...

practice after practice... busy with the upcoming concert;Rewang 'Nak Tari by Majlis Pusat...

also, had a Wearhouse Modeling thigy at Raffles Place... great time... ferst tyme doing it...

(still waiting for pics frm Zuhara!!) hope to do it agaen...

Yeah.. btw.. Semb sec performed fer the SYF OPENING at the INDOOR STADIUM...

went to render my help... watched the whole show... had fun there....

tats all the updates of the past events these past weeks...

suddenly life has decided to play its mischiefs in me...

shant sae it out here... but i noe this time will pass...

but i dunnoe how much more or how much longer i can endure wif all thats happening...

Dance life - wen will all the bitching end??

Personal life - Lonely

Family life - cant sae much... hope n pray tat it gets better each day...

Menace - i miss u all... so so much...

DaMaY - i've let u guys down...

Y2A - i promise to make it for upcoming meetings ok!

Tra'Irat (Bishan) - sorrie guys... will try my best to commit myself!

hopefully... all this will pass soon enuff...

k ya'll take care aite...

byes...

Labels**shud i quit or shud i go on....

wishlist

2007-06-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

was damn bored...

so i tot i cud come up with my wishlist...

so for those of u who havent give me a bdae present which is long overdue...

hehehe(thick-skin sal raimi!!!! but u noe me... hehehe)...

why not get me something from my wishlist eh.... hehe

well here goes...

1) a pair of black crocs

2) a pair of that brazilliono(or wadever it is) sandals

3) a pair of havaiannas

4) a pair of 'aladin' slippers(got 'em ready)

5) black jeans

6) tops from topman

7) belt from guess

8) cardigan from zara/topman

9) a bagpack

10) a sling bag

11) small crumpler

12) the new adidas watch (white)

13) white psp

14) MP4 (creative)

15) new hp

16) headphone (creative)

17) new pair of specs

18) new sunglasses

19) new cap (black, white)

20) some nice tops from any shop (haha)

21) some nice pants/jeans/bermudas from any shop (haha)

22) new pair of shoes (white, brown)

23) some nice accessories (rings, chains, wristbands, necklace etc)

24) wallet from topshop/guess

25) cute cartoon boxers (haha)

26) briefs (oopss... hehe serious i need to buy new but nice ones!! levi's mayb?? hehe)

i guess tats all for now lah...

its nt like i've gt the money to buy all tis stuffs...

especially items number 11-17...

hahaha...

so guys...

if u see any items tat u can afford n have extra cash...

buy it for me ehk!!!

hehehe...

k lah... nytes!!!

labels**i need money!!!

Rewang Nak Tari

2007-06-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

MAJLIS PUSAT mempersembahkan sebuah persembahan tari, REWANG 'NAK TARI, yang menggabungkan kumpulan - kumpulan tari di Singapura seperti Kirana Seni, Teater Tari Era, Tepak Sireh, Atrika, Sriwana, Sri Warisan, Azpirasi dan Perkumpulan Seni.

Tarikh: 8 July 2007, Ahad
Tempat: Teater Victoria
Jam: 8 mlm

Tiket - tiket berharga $15 boleh didapati melaluli emel ke teater_tari_era@yahoo.com.sg
atau anda boleh menghubungi saya...

sokonglah kami!!!!

labels**i want a pair of black crocs!!!

updates!!! at last!!! haha

2007-06-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

so... its been so long since i've updated...

so here goes...

1) hanging out wit ERA mates...

which includes..

a) dance pracs

b) watching 2 dance shows

c) dining together

d) lepak-ing

e)birthdae celebrations

2) then.. theres my skewl...

just finish our assesment...

but lessons still as per normal...

boring as usual..

n wad did we do??

sit outside class n camwhored!! haha

3) then theres this Kendarat thingy fer Badd's

cousin's wedding...

went there with Epul Syuh Amy Badd n Dillah...

had fun... 'Curik tulang'!! direct translation = steal bone..

n we karaoke!!! hahaha

4) daes ago... there was a show at ite macpherson...

some graduation thingy...

oh yar have i told u i'm in mly dance at my skewl also...

hahaha...

k tats all i guess....

aniwaes.. here's a big shout out!!!

to the following people....

I MISS U ALOT!!!!!

where have u been???

sumer menghilang!!!!!

contact me lah!!!!

a) mosque frens

b) ex-classmates

c) NCC-mates (in or outside skewl both same)

d) Giordano Lucky Plaza people...

AND MOST OF ALL!!!!!

e) MENACE FAMILY!!!!!

i really miss u guys man!!!!!

knbcb!!! all senyap jek!! tk tau nk kol n mit up per!!!!

hehe

k i'm done... nytes...

labels**miss those tymes

yikes!!! help!!!!

2007-05-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

k before i get to my main topic,

a big shout out of

THANK YOU!!!!!

to the following people for the bdae presents...

mom n dad fer the perfume and card...

my sis fer the watch...

Diyana, Qad, Ifah and Hasif fer the toblerone chocs...

Fann, Cecilia, Li Ting, Shi Pei and April fer the bdae card...

Kak Wani, Kak Farhana, Kak Jamilah, Atifah and Karim for the bdae cake...

Din and Nani for the 77th street striped polo-T...

Din agaen fer the cute little test tube with my name inside...

Shaiful, Shira, Haida, Muffie, Ain Sot and Aziemah fer the 2 great shirts from S&K...

and also to the following people who wished me HAPPY 18TH BDAE!!!

Ain sot, Shirah, Aziemah, Ifah, Qad, Muffie,

Shaiful, Fazli, Bada, Irfan, Aidil, Kak None,

Ifa Fadilah, Kak Zub, Azri, Fifa, Zuhara, Nani,

Clauds, Abg Ain, Rika, Amilia, Hidayah, Kak Yanty,

Abg Azhar, Syuh, Fadilah, Amrul, Mira, Abg Arep,

Asri, Siti Zuliana, Ermayanee, Hafizi, Raidah, Ju,

Azimah, Kak Wani, Kak Farhana, Atifah....

and to all whom i missed out...

i guess tats all ryte???

if i miss any names do tell me k!!!

k now tats done!!

ok... here goes... this post goes out to tat someone...

forgive my eyes for admiring you...
you stole my heart from the ferst tyme i met you...
but all was lost when i found out you are attached...

n so i looked else where for love...
tats wen M came into the picture...
i dunnoe y but u were the ferst n only person i told...
n i tot i saw a sign of jealousy tat followed...

but i kept mum just incase i was wrong...
and it all proved to be true wen u msg me todae...
but i dun want it to be tis way...

i feel comfortable having you around...
each tyme i see you, i feel calm...
call me crazy, call me insane...
each tyme my heart beats..
it calls your name...

i'll never 4get the incident in the train...
it was frm the heart n nt the brain...

i dun noe how to sae tis to you...
but please dun allow tis to create a dispute in
your relationship wif him...

i dun want ur relationship to end bcos of me...

as for now...

just let me be....

i've been alone for a more than a year...
so whats a few more daes... weeks... months??
i ain't gonna make much difference...

k i'm done...

byes!!

labels**confused...

my birthday??

2007-05-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

yar n so... at 12 mid nite just now

i turned 18...

i'm supposed to be all smiles... happy... excited...

but seriously...

i'm not...

all due to the problems at home n stuffs...

shan't tok about it...

dreading to mit anyone tmrw...

cried all my way home...

walking from yishun to sembawang...

haiz...

should i?

or shouldn't i?

labels**it just dun feel ryte....

haizz

2007-05-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

just wanna sae....

bye to fifa! have fun at dubai!

enjoy urself aite girl!!

gonna miss u so much!!!

happy belated 18th bdae to the following peeps!!

Muhd Farhan

tanx fer all the great tymes we had!!!

miss hanging out with u...

dah lamer sey tk jumper!!!

Azri

i wished u alreadt ryte!!! hahaha

n i meant every single word i saed...
frm e bottom of my heart!!!

labels**fucked up life...

GEJOLAK

2007-05-07T18:13:00.000+08:00

ellosz... been busy lately n lazy to update...

last sat, went fer job interview.... gt the job...

as a photographer at the places of interest in S'pore...

under the DigiPhoto company i tink! hahaha...

pay nt bad... 5 bucks per hour...

n its an easy job... so it shud be fine fer me lah...

den after the interview, went to Lucky Plaza...

met Abg Ain, Kak Ayu, Abg Arep, Alim, Din,

Amrul and Bada....

den jln2 at town... go far east...

kill tyme cos it was only like 5 plus...

we're all actually going fer the

Perkumpulan Seni's concert at Vic' Theater later tat nite...

and it only starts at 8pm...

so... walked around Far East.... Kaku Ayu received gifts frm

Abg Ain n Abg Arep... belated bdae gifts lah...

Cam Whored the whole tyme we were walking around...

had alot of fun with them tat dae...

after the whole concert, went to Lau Pa Sat to eat...

it's fun hanging out with them... never a moment tat u'll feel bored...

den went home... n guess wad!!!!

ABG AIN n KAK AYU took the train home with us!!!!

n tats like the very ferst tyme they ever did tat!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA....

really had fun like practically the whole day!!!

until the part we saed gdbyes n alight frm train....

ok lah... let the pics do the toking!!!

actually still gt more pics...

but dunnoe y cannot upload..

so too bad den!! kekeke...

k lah wanna go eat..

hungry sal!!!

see ya'll soon aites!!!

keep those tags coming!!!

labels**finally gt a job!!!

ISA 07

2007-05-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

...the classmates i love...

ain(sot) me n shakir(now at simei)

our soccer team(like real!!! hahaha)

crazy bunch of people in my class

i love my classmates...

hope we'll stay close alwaes...

aziemah

khai

shaiful

zhu sheng (ali)

ain sot

muff

haidar

ifa

diana

qad

shira

shakir(now at simei)

see ya'll in school!!!

you guys are the only reason y i cum to skewl everydae...

even thou i'm alwaes late!!!

hehehe...

tanx fer alwaes making me happy guys!!!

labels**still upset with mummy

KACIP MAS DULANG PERMATA

2007-05-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

some pics taken during the show....

asri yanti n me...

reflectionsz

doin my make up

drawing my eye brow...

getting ready...

still getting ready...

me and amalina my dance patner...

behind the scenes.. moments b4 showtime...

me n kak melly...

asri n me...

me n abg ayin...

my item INANG LENGGOK

the whole cast...

thank you musicians...

finale...

was a great show...

enjoyed myself...

felt relief tat its finally over...

will miss all the trainings we went tru...

will miss all the guest dancers n musicians...

tanx for everything...

you want to watch some video

of the concert

go to youtube n type

kacip mas dulang permata

or click here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RaDgt7LOgvA

after the whole show...

went back to pa to keep all the stuffs...

den lepak at imam fer supper...

following dae stayed at home...

namely bcos i had an arguement with mom dad n sis...

mom n dad disapprove of me dancing...

but i dun care...

i told them tis,

"just noe tat i wont quit p.a. i've werked

so hard to prove to them tat im worthy of

being a member... n i dun wan to regret not

doin wat i want n love to do..."

n so they kept quite...

i cried like practically the whole dae...

upon noeing tat my parents arent supportive of

wat i like to do...

but i'll stand by my decision n i wont let

aniting get in my way...

they dun want to support my expenses

den fine... i'll get myself a part time job...

i'll find my own means to support myself...

all i hope for is tat one day,

they'll realise wat i am...

n not who they want me to be...

i am wat i am...

and i'm sorry if i cant be the person u wanted me

to be...

Labels**cried my eyes dry...

kewlious!!!

2007-04-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

heys all!!

haha... sorry fer late updates...

been busy with skewl n dance lately...

hahaha...

everyday after skewl go fer dance prac str8 away...

almost everydae lah...

tis week the whole week gt prac...

until next tues...

den wed rest dae...

thurs is the rehearsal n fri is the actual day!!!!

yeah!!! at last!!!!

i'm now at skewl actually...

i'm supposed to do a powerponit presentation on a new product to launch...

but until now i still dunnoe wad product to launch...

i have a company in mind...

but dunnoe if i shud go with it or change my company choice

or create my own company...

dilema...

hahaha....

anyhus...

dance prac has been so tiring!!!!

(even tou i only dance one item n some parts fer contemp)

it's still damn tiring lah!!!! hahaha...

nvm... shall endure until next week!!!

i'm sure all the hard werk will pay off...

last reminder!!!! the CONCERT is just NEXT WEEK!!!!!

so please do komfem with me if u want tix!!! or read my previous posts!!!!

gtg...

Labels**damn tired!!!

the person i am

2007-04-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

At this moment, there are

6,470,818,671 people in the world.

Some are running scared

Some are coming home

Some tell lies to make it trough the day

Others are just not facing the truth

Some are evil men, at war with good

And some are good, struggling with evil

Six billion people in the world

Six billion souls

And sometimes, all you need is one.

And once you lose yourself,

You have 2 choices;

Find the person you used to be,

Or lose that person completely

Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you've been

And remember the person you were MEANT to be

The person you WANTED to be

The person you ARE...

ferst day skewl todae!!!

was fun!!! loved my class...

8 boys all together...

out of which 6 of us are a click in an instant!!!

Did befriended some gals too...

actually more like most of the malay gals lah...

hahaha....

my class fucking crazy people...

all fun and easy going!!!

looking 4ward to meet them agaen tmrw....

till then...

tired lah...

orientation ended at 5 man just now...

n tmrw skool starts at 8!!!

yikes!!!!

i need to sleep!!!

nytes!!!

Labels**i am what i am

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

2007-04-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

omg! omg! omg!

tmrw's the ferst dae of skool!!!!!

yikes!!!! hahha...

no lah... actually quite looking 4ward to it lah...

its been a tuff life werking fer 2 mnths plus...

n slacking n dancing fer 4 mnths....

so... skools gonna be great(hopefully)....

aniwaes...

2 daes ago...

i cut my hair...

real short...

n i really mean really really short!!!

all tis tanx to asri...

he wanted to cut his hair damn short...

n asked me to cut with him....

i dun mind lah... cos sometime i oso lazy to make my hair...

n oso... its bcos he's paying fer my haircut!!!

so... free haircut leh... just cut lor!!!!

hahaha....

u must be asking... wad kind of haircut ryte???

hehehe....

we went to the barber with tis....

n went home with tis.....

hahaha... told u it was damn short!!!!

so hu looks better??? me or asri with our botak head????

leave a tag yar!!! hahaha i really wanna noe!!!

todae... went to bird park wif asri's fam...

damn fun but tiring...

cos after tat still have to go p.a.

ouh yar... tanx asri n tis other guy for pizza!!!!

ok lah... i guess tats about it...

very tired n sleepy...

tmrw must wake up early go skewl...

haha...

see u!!!

buhbye!!!

Labels**bishan... here i cum!!!!

it all dun matter to me

2007-04-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

had a great tok with someone todae...

tanx F for telling me everything...

n tanx to all those people who bitched about me...
who doesn't have the guts to do it str8 to my face...

tanx...

i shall now let experience a little of the REAL me...
lets see if u can accept tat...
since u cant accept tat 'me' who's fitting into ur characthers...

now i shall see how u fit into mine...

after all...
i am ARROGANT...
i am IRRITATING...
i am BOASTFULL...

to the two person who is really sincere in our frenship...
tanx.. i really appreciate it...

to the rest... i just can't be bothered...
hate me for all u want...
bitch bout me for all u want...
i dun care...

to tat one person...
i've totally lost hope already...
tanx n gd bye to you...

tmrw will be the start of a new chapter...
a chapter tat is going to be really interesting...
a chapter tat starts with blood sacrifice...
(if u noe wad i mean)

till then...

Labels**frens are many... but close n gd frens is little...

heart's desire

2007-04-11T01:46:00.000+08:00

As i lie here...

I tot of the tymes we shared...

We started out as frens...

Den we became buddies...

N soon u were my bro...

Todae i realise...

I truly missed those tymes...

I might nt tok to u face to face...

Maybe bcos its awkward...

But i hope u noe...

That u were never 4gotten nor hated...

I dunnoe y u wont tok to me...

Maybe its bcos u are still angry with me??

Or maybe u just want to torture me with e silent treatment...

But wadever it is...

I'm truly...

Sincerely...

Sorry for all e mistakes i've done towards u if any...

I will still be waiting...

Hoping...

Wishing...

Until alas...

We shall speak to each other again...

I REALLY REALLY MISS U!!!

Labels**missing someone...

my heart, broken to pieces...

2007-04-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

u made me real sad today...

we went home together...

the 4 of us in a cab...

we were the last two to drop off...

n through out the journey...

u sat at ur corner....

never looking at me..

nor toking to me...

my heart screamed fer help...

my heart cries for the silence to break...

wen u dropped off...

tears began wetting my cheek...

y are u doing tis to me?

until wen wont u tok to me??

really felt like giving up....

u...

a bro to me once...

is now ignoring me...

like a stranger...

unknown...

undiscovered...

it hurts...

it hurts so so much!!!!

after all tat we went through together...

and tis?? now???

it's just too much...

pls stop torturing me...

pls!!!!

i really missed toking to you...

i really missed all the fun we had...

all the laughters we shared...

will it ever come back???

i miss u bro...

i really do...

if only u knew...

Labels**cry myself to sleep bcos of u...

its aching all over... but my heart aches the most

2007-04-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe y...

but my body is aching all over...

i dunnoe y...

but my body is weak...

wat i noe...

my heart aches more...

wat i noe...

my heart is more weaker...

its been so long...

n yet...

like alwaes...

i tried...

but still... no response...

i've finally decided to put it all behind...

but u can't seem to do it...

i tot u were in e wrong...

but it seemed tat u tink i am in the wrong...

i've got nthg more to say...

still holding on to tat hope n wishes...

but until wen?

i'm afraid i cant hold on any longer...

i might just give up...

maybe now...

maybe tmrw...

maybe nxt week...

but till den...

i'll still be holding on...

hoping...

wishing...

tat one day...

u'll soon realise...

and tok to me agaen...

if nt...

a msg helps...

a smile helps...

wen??

i dunnoe...

.................................................................................................

KACIP MAS DULANG PERMATA

a MUST WATCH dance production!!!

Labels**holding on... but till wen?

fucked up

2007-04-05T02:30:00.000+08:00

just got back frm wak's crib...

was there lepak n watch movie...

stressed at home with my parents...

so gave wak a ring and went over to his place...

tot i'd get peace...

well i did...

but nt fer long...

they (wak n aidil) started to tok bout relationships n all...

made me sad...

made me ting of the bad past...

bout my boy gerl relationships...

bout my 'bros'...

suddenly i just felt lonely...

tears wet my cheek...

but no one noticed(like always)...

msged tat person like numerous tymes...

tru frenster n sms...

but until now no single replies...

heeded ju's advice...

but like i saed...

no use...

waiting...

still waiting...

hope to find a gerl soon...

been lonely fer so long...

hoping...

still hoping...

until wen?

i dun noe...

but i'll alwaes wait and hope for the best...

cos i noe...

one day...

it'll all be worth it...

it will right???

i dun noe...

till den...

i'll just wait n hope...

it's the only thing i cud do...

Labels**still waiting n hoping...

Theatre Tari Era

2007-04-04T14:52:00.000+08:00

hey guys...
here's smthg to share...
do spread it to ur circle of family and friends...
asri and myself will be performing fer tis concert...
so do come down and support us ok!!!!

Dear Arts & Culture Activists,

TEATER TARI ERA proudly presents a dance production entitled 'Kacip Mas Dulang Permata'.

Name of Event : Kacip Mas Dulang Permata

Date : Friday, 27th April 2007

Time : 8 pm

Venue : Victoria Theatre

Ticket : $16, $20

As we progress to meet the challenges of globalization, traditional values and norms face an impending threat of obsolete. However, creative ideas fused with contemporary elements, can elevate the value of traditional dance forms to a new strata. ‘Kacip Mas Dulang Permata’ aims to ensure that our heritage remains relevant even in today’s fast changing environment.

For enquiries or booking of tickets, please do not hesitate to contact

Yasmine at 9035 0060 or

Maya 9035 0050.
Thank you for your kind support. It is greatly appreciated.

do come and support us yar!!!!!
any doubts do msg me and i'll help to explain...
hehehe...
tanx...

Labels**bored till the end of time

...random...

2007-04-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

just some random pics...

with mega n eunos

with mali

Y2A design dis... i was part of it... nice ryte?!?!

Y2A members

going fer aspirasi show

chingay 07 boys (P.A.)

chingay 07 me with kak melly kak yasmin n kak ayu

chingay 07 with bada asri abg ayin wan kecik alim n abg arif

NUS arts fest... my item... inang lenggok

us with our dance patners...

i'm sick..

but did anione cared?

no...

anione bothered?

no...

mcm nk mampos jer...

lagi bagos...

labels**i'm really sick... feel like dying...

very sick n shagged

2007-04-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

gosh i'm so tired...

guess wat!!! i didnt sleep last nite!!! the whole of last nite!!!

cos i was busy doing some stuffs lah....

den by 6AM i got ready to go fer the Maulidul Rasul thingy at wdlands stadium...

6AM!!!! can u imagine tat?!?! reach oni... help here n there...

den took a health check lah... free mah...

everything ok... just tat i shrunk 1cm n gain 3kg!!!!

gosh... all e 3 kg is at my tummy!!!! i buncit u noe!!!

kekeke....

den suddenly kak zana n kak wani approached me to become emcee...

emcee fer the dikir barat comp n other performances lah...

i was stunned sey... like so last minute lah...

but i took up the challenge n did it with Acap...

so had to stay lah until like 4pm...

wen all the prize giving all finish...

den headed to ustazah suhana's crib...

ate... rest... sleep fer like 5 mins... den off i go to P.A.

gt pract until like 10.30pm just now...

i was so darn tired man...

sampai jer tukar tros duduk pat studio n rested my head on the steps...

cos abg man sebok with tarian payung mah...

so decided to rest fer a while lah...

hehehe...

den... baru jer nk terlelap...

abg ayin suroh amik tempat abg azhar... for positioning...

end up... i learnt the whole dance fer Remaja Ria....

kewl lah... but u noe... i tired... den dance n dance n dance...

den still gt my item... den must do abg azhar's item agaen!!!

nt complaining... but asking for pity... hehehe...

tired manz...

tmrw nid to go semb sec...

must train Katrina fer her hosting compt....

aku nie... byk nah keje...

kekeke...

so must komfem with her the tyme all agaen..

nvm tat one tmrw oso can....

haiz....

its been like wad... 2 weeks since we last met?

n like wad...6 weeks plus since we last spoken to each other??

but i was glad to see u just now...

even thou we didnt tok...

atleast u came... i dunnoe y...

but was glad lah u came...

just hope we'll tok soon...

hoping.... waiting....

wen??? i dunnoe...

still hoping n waiting...

ok lah... i really very tired n sick man...

i wanna eat my chicken... den msn fer a while...

den ZZZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZ........

very sleepy u noe!!!!!

nytes...

love ya'll...

Labels**am i invisible? is it me? or everyone is just ignoring me?

$$$ = troubles

2007-03-30T01:02:00.000+08:00

hie all...

n so... i received my last pay from GIO PTE LTD....

not much... about half of wad i used to get lah...

but... baru je dpt... baru je kluarkan...

dah kene saman...

cos y? tis clever guy named RAIMI...

bought ciggies... den wants to smoke the FERST stick...

tk sampai 1/2.... kene tahan dgn HSA...

so mite probably kene saman $30 atau kene warning letter...

pandai kan!!!!! SO UNLUCKY!!!!

den... i tot of putting aside 300 to buy me self a PSP or smthg like tat ah...

MP5 ker... MP4 ker.... smthg tat can watch vids... listen songs....

play games n all lah...

received many advice from many people...

saying jgn beli dulu...

tunggu sale... atau it fair ke...

ader pulak...

yang gare2 nk aku ikot pegie holiday pat kl....

ckp tunggu bdae den nanti dorang kongsi duit ramai2 belikan....

cos i nid about 200plus to pay fer expenses n shopping pat sane lah...

so now me tgh bingung....

nk dgr cakap siape ye????

hmmmmm....(rubs chin)

anyhus... now busy with concert practice....

its coming soon!!! the day!!!

less then 1 month to go!!!

syf is less then 1 week!!!!

stress stress!!!!

haha...

althou i never teach any skewls fer syf...

but i slalu turon semb...

n looking at them...

i stress!!!!!

kekeke...

so.... its been wad... 2 weeks since i last saw tat person???

n erm its been wad... 6 weeks since we last spoken to each other???

i missed those tymes man!!!! well... nvm... y bother??

i shan't let history repeat agaen....

yar... bile dpt gaji...

ape lagie...

i went shopping lah...

i bought 2 t-shirts pat giordano...

nice prints they had there...

bought 1 shirt fer my sis...

1 project shop t-shirt... which is so damn nice...

1 cardigan from revoltage... which costed me 60 bucks!!!

a bag from INC....

a necklace with my name engraved...

n a pair of sunglass from power 9...

wen shopping with mali...

den waited fer eunos n mega...

den proceed to have dinner at kopitiam near youth park...

had a ball of a tyme with them...

i luve them so much...

they were my closest frens at GIO LP wen i werked there...

reached home around 2 plus...

(btw all this happened on the 28th march)

kekekeke....

ok lah... i want to eat my maggie now...

n watch DREAM GIRLS...

see ya'll soon....

bye!!!

labels***until wen am i gonna be like tis???

updates...

2007-03-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

Teman....

Harap kau terima bahasaku yang biasa

Tiada berbunga namun begitu

Izinkan aku menghiburkan jiwamu

Dengan kata-kata yang sederhana

Aku bukannya sasterawan negara

Aku hanya manusia biasa.

Teman.......

Biarpun engkau jauh dari mataku

Namun...kenangan bersamamu

Masih tetap dalam ingatan

Tidak terlintas akan terjadi

Bertemu kita berpisah jua akhirnya

Teman...

Hari-hari ku rasa bagai mimpi

Seolah engkau sentiasa di sisi....

.........................................

SAHABAT

Aku masih di sini

Bersama persahabatan kita

Tidakkan mudah terlerai

Tidakkan mudah hilang di ingatan

Bukan hanya semalam

Tidak cuma kelmarin

Telah bertahun kita bersama

Saling mengenali

Mencipta aneka cerita

Suka duka,sedih genbira

Mengeratkan ikatan mesra

Suci sejati

Kita berpisah

Bukan kerana suka

Kita berpisah

Atas nama keperluan

Demi aku dan engkau

Menuju maju jaya

Masing-masing yakin

Hanya sementara

Diizin Tuhan bersua kita kembali

Andai sebaliknya

Itu juga takdir

Cuma berdoa

Agar dipertemukan semula

Suatu hari nanti

.........................................

it's been 16 days since we spoke to each other...

sometimes its lonely nt contacting with tat person...

sometimes i just missed the tymes we spent...

toking fer hours...

msging...

going out...

i missed those tymes...

but i doubt tat person even thinks about it...

hope we'll tok agaen soon...

cos i missed all the fun we used to have together...

every single time we met...

i missed those daes so much...

haiz....

..............................................................

tmrw...

miting amilia...

going to bishan ite to pay fer our fees...

buy books n uniform...

finally...

skool's starting soon...

looking 4ward to it...

cos trust me... i prefer skooling den werking...

werking life is tuff u noe!!!!

den after tat mite just head home...

tired lah...

had a very busy week...

p.a. pract was like 5 tymes...

on tues... thurs to sun (which include the show on sat)

well.. the NUS show was great...

did some mistakes here n there...

but not noticable... cos i viewed the video...

n its not so obvious...

lucky me...

kekeke...

but bada was so gimmick!!!

hahaha...

all his props gave way n dropped...

den he... the sotong...

picked it up n dance with it...

both hands holding to the props...

dancing like nobody business...

hahaha...

everyone laughed...

but its ok lah...

cos our item was a comedy item...

its supposed to be funny...

no photos now...

cos somehow...

all the pics i took with my camera tat dae...

gt deleted...

damn frustrated man!!!

fuck sey... everything gone!!!!

bad luck i guess...

but i'll try to get some pics from kak None...

so... hopefully i'll post it soon k...

kekekeke....

okies... me very tired... wanna sleep...

see ya'll soon....

bye....

labels*** happiness seems so far away

Way Back Into Love

2007-03-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,

I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need em again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

labels**i need love care and concern

frenship? clicks? bros n sis? buddy? whut does it really mean?

2007-03-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

"A friend is one who knows who you are,

understands where you have been,

accepts what you have become,

and still gently allows you to grow."

William Shakespeare

"A real friend is one who walks in,

when the rest of the world walks out."

"A true friend stabs you in the front."

Oscar Wilde

What are friends?

Friends are people that you think are your friends

But they're really your enemies,

with secret indentitiesand disguises,

to hide they're true colors

So just when you think

you're close enough to be brothers

they wanna come back

and cut your throat when you ain't lookin

-"If I Had" - Eminem

"Friendship is delicate as a glass,

once broken it can be fixed

but there will always be cracks"

..............

above are some frenship quotes...

be it positive or negative...

to me its all true...

like i saed in e previous posts...

we can have lots of frens...

but only a few are true...

clicks? hmmm...

wen we make frens...

there's a tendency of forming clicks...

even in tat small grp of frens...

but are u sure u r in the right click?

tats a question i alwaes ask myself...

bros n sis?

i've had many so-called bros...

all of which are untruthful to the brotherhood...

all of which are backstabbers in e end...

all of which just used me to get "privileges"...

sis... hmm... quite a few tymes...

but only 2 are truthful to me...

the rest... dissapear to thin air...

buddy??

hah! my ass...

never have a buddy...

cos trust me... most of the tymes...

they'll backstab u...

happened many tymes....

resolution....

u can have many frens...

but trust a few...

u can have bros n sis...

but dun expect true brotherhood...

have clicks... but dun stick to one...

have buddy but leave b4 u regret...

cos no one is really truthful to one another...

n really... no one wud bother to care about you...

like wad was saed to me by diff people...

"i settle my own probs... so do it urself!"

"i've gt my own probs to settle... so dun bother me with urs!"

but in true fact... i helped to settle their probs

or atleast lessen their burden by advicing n stuff...

they always tell me their probs...

n i've never turn them away by saying nasty stuff...

so get the picture???

his frenster profile may say (under the who i want to meet column)

"Whoever wants to be friends or needs a brother or buddy or companion"

but he didnt mean it...

he used me to get wad he wanted...

den...

u shud no the ending...

i'm confused...

i just dun understand...

am i just too nice and easily deceived?

am i just a punching bag?

who am i to you people?

what am i to you?

a fren?

a buddy?

a bro?

an enemy?

i dun noe...

tell me... make me understand...

i just can never find a true fren...

someone who shares their probs

n shares mine...

someone who receive helps and helps back...

someone who is always there for me

as i am for them...

so to those frens who felt a punch on their face

wen reading this...

or felt hurt...

i'm sorry... but i just want you to noe how i feel...

to those who noes that

the positive things are refering to them...

i'm grateful for ur true frenship all this while...

but seriously...

who are my true frens?

enlighten me...

nytes...

labels** fren? or foe?